A punch in the stomach
It seems that no matter how much time I invest studying chemistry, it still isn’t enough to succeed. It was a practice test, but still, I work my ass off for it and only got 50%. This was a major hit to my motivation.
Luckily, my lab partner and study buddy also had difficulties, and she cheered me up. Even with the overwhelming wave of discouragement, I pushed through doing some biology studies. I started slow with exploration vidéos. Surprisingly, no matter how boring our poorly animated, those little conceptualised images calmed my nerves and I ended getting a full chapter of revision in.
I’m in the boss, in a better mood. Knowing that I have more study time ahead, specially before the exams. I should manage to pull some decent grades. It’s hard to accept that even with only two courses, no job, and no kids, I’m doing worst than the rest of the students. I wish one day I can figure out what’s their secret, and how I can somehow achieve it.
