May 10
Adjusting to my Summer rhythm
The sun wakes me up around 5 am, I’m active by 6 am, and start feeling tired by 6 pm. It’s hard to plan things when I want to wrap up my day so early. But I’ll manage. My entire social circle is aware of my chronic fatigue, and health issues, so they know I’m not up to do anything after dinner.
Today I tackled laundry early in the day, completed my taxes, completed my first physics quizz (it went weel), and did more physics studying before heading back home. I’m i the bus right now, and eager to snuggle my blankets. I stayed a bit later at school than what I wanted because St indicated a potential availability for a chat, but his health didn’t permit. I askhim if we could chat at lunch or in the day in the future. I’m not an evening person anymore. I think he will appreciate it since he also need to get to bed early because of his health. I like the fact we seem to be on the same schedule so far.
For now, my infatuation squirrels wants sleep. Health is a reliable tammer when it comes to romance. I need to take care of my physical, and mental health on a daily so does St. It’s good to know he won’t get butt hurt if I postpone or change plans because I’m not feeling well. Not having respect my energy levels with my last relationship, I know it was a big contributing factor to the build up of my chronic fatigue.
I audioread further, “The journey from abandonment to healing,” by Susan Anderson while doing laundry, and I learned abour fascinating research pointing out the correlation between immune deficiencies, and the feeling of abandonment. I knew from the loneliness audioreading I did before that feeling alone was a leading cause of death. To better understand the instances where we feel rejected or abandoned, and their impact on our endocrine system helps untangling some of my health issues.
To be able to establish healthy limits while feeling that my relationship is not at risk is a key component for future relational success. Focusing on my well-being first is paramount. I think what the weeks to come will bring will be highly educational in many ways.
