My daily routine is returning to its calm flow. I’ve been fairly relaxed today while tackling many tasks. I studied like a pro, had a doctors appointment, attended my video lunch date, did more studies before hitting, chatted with my best friend, and am now of to bed on time. Pretty awesome.
Something interesting happened at lunch, another triggering comment, but this time it’s truly a negative sign. I will allow for one or so more conversation to clarify, but it’s not panning well. Regardless of a probable ending of my courting, I’m unbelievably proud of myself. Though, if it wouldn’t have been for St’s comment that cool me down last week, I wouldn’t have been able to break my dating pattern. I’m grateful that I’ve been able to listen to life when it pointed out at big red flags. The book, “The journey from abandonment to healing,” also is making a world of difference. It realy is explaining all my relational patterns to the finesse details of neurology. A lifetime is coming into focus.
The decades of atrocious romantic failures I’ve been through seem to have provided me with a certain level of wisdom at this point — finally! I still have to give credit to Susan Anderson’s expertise for helping me in my recent maturing, and St’s insistence in taking it slow. All, and all, this recent brush with romance will enhancey growth without keeping me for once.
In the midst of my realization, an other old friend memory resurfaced, one that warned me about man like St. I guess I’ll have to reach out to him with no romantic endeavors to thank him in person for his good advice I can still live by today. He’s an inspiring human being. He’s busy career, and active social life would make it that he probably won’t have time for a friendship with me, which I’m perfectly fine with. I just want to show my gratitude, and move on. Maybe, on my next Montreal trip.
For now, it’s time to show some self-love, and go to bed.