Disappointed at my efficiency

Judith's Squirrels
2 min readJan 17, 2022

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The start of a semester is always hard, but I’m really bellow my expectations at this point when it comes to my progress. Once more, I’m stock not comprehending simple mathematical concepts in chemistry. Plus, I have to speed up on my algebra studies. I thought I would be more prepared this time, though my performance says other wise.

Gosh! Why can’t I have one of those brains that picks up on math just like that? Seriously, what is it with certain calculation processes that I can’t seem to get a hold of even after practicing for weeks? Why can’t I notice the patterns or resemblance between problems? It’s frustrating, but all I can do is practice more so it becomes a question of acquired memory rather than logic. It saddens me, but it’s the best I can do at the moment.

I also hope my energy quicks in a bit more. I need to put in closer to 8 hours a day, and right now I seem to be able to maintain my concentration for about 4 hours. I take short breaks, usually have a snack midtime, still, I don’t last very long, and don’t accomplish much duting those few hours unfortunately. Hopefully the fear that is starting to kick in will activate things a litte.

On the plus side, my early morning ADD med intake worked like a charm! I fell back asleep without problems, and woke up refreshed, and ready for my day. I still got a lot done along studying, and chose to stay home because the weather was simply to much to bear. Also, I saved time not communicating. Time for an extra early bed time, before an early start to a week that will be intense.

Gratitude Journal:

I’m grateful for inventing a new faster way to cook beans for my bean flour.

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Judith's Squirrels

Completed diary of a student entering university at forty. Just writing for me. Kaizenka, ex-nomade, foodie, and health nerd.