Fluctuating mood
It’s really annoying. Within the spent of an hour, I can swing between yawning, and feel like I need to go to bed to bouncing around wanting to go for a run. I know that antidepressants do trigger hypomania which makes trying to take ADD med really challenging. I haven’t used my new medication for the past 3 days since I was very stressed by my extensive math homeworks. Yet, I have to try them a bit longer to see if it can help me or not. Right now I’m considering asking for mood stabilizing medication because my ups, and downs are very pronounced, and happening at a rapid pace. All I can do for the time being is regulate myself as best as I can.
I have to say I don’t feel chatty, I’m in a bit of a rote. I just tired to be tired because of my chronic fatigue. Meanwhile I’m avoiding going overboard when bubbles of hyperactivity hits. There’s no smooth middle option lately, it’s exhausting. I’m trying to stay focused, and positive, but it’s hard. Something’s off, and I know that improving my social activities, and exercise regularly will help. School just makes it hard to squeeze in a new routine, as well as my unpredictable energy levels.
I’ll be talking to my doctor to see what can be done. For now, I have to exercise patience, and self-compassion. Just when I thought things would get better my endocrine system throws a curve ball at me. All I can think of is cuddling with a future intimate partner. It seems like such a difficult goal to meet someone right now, I now my mood is making things worst than they are. I’ll have to keep faith that what needs to happen, will happen.
