I joined the wave
“Everything is figureoutable.” Yes, I started audio-reading the famous book of Marie Forleo and self-affirming that quote since yesterday. There’s much more silence in my days being single and the presence of great writers is my favourite company right now.
I’m still moving ahead with school, homework and preparations too. I feel like I’m back to my Spring flow when I only focused on my goals and dreams. I was chatting with my dear friend S this evening assessing that single life has a lot of upsides. It will be easier for me to stay grounded and let life happen rather than rush for the next romance.
My best friend W also came as reinforcement to advise me to pace myself when it comes to dating. This last relationship ending came with a lot of drama and unnecessary work. Yes, there’s a gender gap when it comes to men’s ability to embrace equally male and female skills. Most importantly, I need to put the oxygen mask on me first and figure my shit out before even attempting anything new. My Montreal friend truthful email yesterday did help reinforce my new goal.
As much as loneliness is a health threat, bad relationships are equally toxic. It takes time to find the right equilibrium, I will exercise patience, or as much patience I can muster. I’m a blunt, “I am who I am" kind of person and I display my flaws and all from the get go because I don’t believe in playing games. This fast forward approach usually creates epic crashes by the end of a relationship; though I save precious time away from dynamics not ment for me.
We all make our choices in life and going slow in getting to know people is not my forte, but with a little practice I can stay true to myself while taking more time to observe the new individual in my personal sphere. It’s not about changing me, but rather change how I perceive others. Ultimately, becoming more aware of myself in social context will also help me better understand others in their interactions with me. I will become more curious in the weeks to come of my interpersonal dynamics and hopefully achieve more insight.
