Not letting go

Judith's Squirrels
2 min readMar 24, 2022

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I really wanted to finish my lab report today. I woke up at 6 am and worked on it for an hour and a half before going to school for our exceptional extra class of chemistry, then obsessed over my report till I couldn’t think straight anymore. When I try to meet a deadline, I get excessive. Even if the deadline got pushed to Monday, I personally wanted to finish this afternoon since it was the original cut off time.

It’s okay, I’m not the only one struggling with fully grasping the meaning, and procédures of each questions we have to answer. Most have already give up in trying to understand it all. I’d like to make my teacher happy because he invests so much time in our education. At the same time, I have to accept his instructions are indeed confusing. What I need to refocus on is all the new notions we need to learn in the up coming weeks. We’re far from finished, and I have to move on.

On the other hand, algebra has taken a backseat. I’ll have to get back to it tomorrow. The plan is to wake up early, take my new medication, and dive headfirst till my brain is to tired to think. This weeks homework is hefty again, so I have to double up all efforts since the end of this semester will be intense.

Time to roll up my sleeves, and push till this semester comes to a term. Luckily, my energy levels are decent at the moment. I wish I would have had time for trying the nice spinning studio today, but I’ll have to organize my studies better, and discipline myslef to stick to a time-line to do that. I think that will be the hardest part, letting go when it’s time to move on.

Gratitude Journal :

I’m grateful for chairs I can sit cross-legged on when at school.

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Judith's Squirrels
Judith's Squirrels

Written by Judith's Squirrels

Completed diary of a student entering university at forty. Just writing for me. Kaizenka, ex-nomade, foodie, and health nerd.

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