Not too slow, and not too fast.

It was a good Saturday. I woke up rested, had a fabulous Indian flavour inspired brunch, completed my chemistry laboratory report in time,and even did grocery at the end of it all. A sense of rythme is emerging from my newly established routine which comforts me greatly.

I started audio reading the new book of Dr. Perry, and Oprah Winfrey, “What happened to you?”, a marvelous mix of vulgarized neurology, and testimonials. It compiles the most important discoveries on child brain development, as well as the impact of trauma on young, and mature brains. I real joy to listen, and an eye opener for all of us.

I’m understanding better how I came to have learning disabilities, and how my emotional regulation center got affected by my life experiences. It’s very helpful in creating lasting stability, and health. I never knew how rythme was an essential part of life balance. It has a profound soothing effect, and it’s a powerful regulating tool. It’s inspiring me to further perfect my routine to integrate cyclical rythmes, like following the seasons or repeating patterns.

The little joyous predictable sequence I’ve crafted for myself lately is candle light evenings. It’s so calming before bed, and it inspires wellbeing. I sat down infront of a delicious home cooked meal earlier bathed in the soft orange glow of candles. Being self-sufficient in making myself feel special is awesome. I will always need those close to me, and their attention towards me is unparalleled. Though finding ways to enjoy my solitude helps not feeling lonely.

A little care goes a long way, and good beat lift’s the soul.

Gratitude Journal:

I’m grateful for dancing, even if I don’t do it as often as I wish.

My daily diary as a student entering university for the first time at forty. Growth is my life long quest. Kaizenka, ex-nomade, foodie, and health nerd.