Feb 3
Omg, I think I’m starting to speak math!?!
Seriously. What I’m reading is starting to make sense, I can explain some aspects of my exercises to my tutors, and I’m succeeding more often when solving a problem. Plus, my spreadsheet for my chemistry lab was impeccable! Like holy… I definitely crash learned this difficult language, but I’m getting there.
I don’t know how versatile I’ll be in the long run though what a noticeable improvement. Those crazy vertical learning curves I smash my face on regularly seem to pay off. It’s encouraging because I spent an insane amount of time fighting to understand all of this. I’m relieved to see that there is a light at the end of the tunnel, and I will achieve some level of proficiency in mathematics.
I hope I’ll be able to nurture those skills over time. It would be a shame to learn all this, and not maintain it over time. I’m proud of starting to defeat a major educational roadblock. Finding solutions to problems gives me such a high. I don’t want to loose this feeling of achievement. I can only imagine how rewarding it will be to discover answers to the female microbiome in the future. The prospect of making a difference by creating new ways of understanding the world is exhilarating.
My lab went very well, my chemistry partner is happy with our results, and I can go home before 8 pm to cook, and eat a good hearty meal. I’ve been so busy that I haven’t eaten enough in the past 2 weeks. To feel that I’m catching up on my studies, and that I’ll be okay is a relief. Also, I have more joy, and energy. My new medication has transformed my life. From constant fatigue, and difficulty being motivated, to easily waking up, and getting going on what ever I need to do is awesome. Life is less of a burden, it probably one of the best things to ever happen to me.
