Only 10 hours on campus today, that’s a short day!
Well, yesterday’s discouragement from not being able to resolve one physics problem was alleviated by the news that I’m not the only one, and the teacher has not yet presented all the concepts in class. Still, “no hablo Chinese” I like to say when scrambled symbols overwhelm me. I have many things to learn and master, at least, I’m on the right track.
I do have to bare in mind that I’m many classes and dozens of hours away from having the proper math skills to navigate this program comfortably. I after breakdown in tears on the phone last night with my dear friend S that gave me much needed perspective, and also breaking down in tears with the poor physics tutor trying to help me, I’m coming to terms with the fact I may fail anything heavily math related. I’m not happy with this fact but I have to accept it. With my learning disability, it will be easier to reorganize in case of failures, still, ky perfectionist self hates this thought.
The other forty years old woman in my classes has decided to go part time and spread her study load over two years, we were on the same boat, so keeping a full time schedule is good considering my situation. Also, I have nothing else to do and can spend considerable time studying. An other bonus, the Fall break that will give me a full week to get back on schedule depending on my set backs.
Day in and day out, that’s the plan. Regardless on my grade, I’m proud of my hard work and dedication. I know it will pay off, and that no matter what, I have and will make progress.
