May 10, 2021
Relentless unexpected
After a full week of curved balls and rushed major life changes, I’m exhausted. Without being insurmountable, the challenges laying before me demand my very last filaments of energy. I will make it, but I have to allocate less time to my personal activities. Going back to school is something I’m doing for myself, so technically, it is a personal activity, but the cadence is leaving me breathless. With tired eyes that still have much more work to do, I’m pushing through the fatigue so I can stay on top of my assignments.
Outside of school, it seems that most aspects of my existence are going through a transformation. I will be moving across the continent, which will demand a significant portion of my time away from class. My body is adapting to its new fast pace schedule, my friends are generous and patient as I lack time to interact, and unfortunately, my blog will have to suffer as I grind my way through a condensed Spring term. My daily painting meditation was the first casualty last week, and now my ever-growing to-do list is slowly eating away my sleep time. It will be hard as I’m going through two enormous undertakings at once while trying to maintain my ongoing activities.
I trust that I will succeed, even if I must wait to rest and recover in July. This intense cadence could re-trigger my chronic fatigue, and I do my best to walk and stretch every day as well as maintaining healthy eating habits. As long as I take small steps in all directions, I will keep moving. I also have to accept that I may have to pause on certain fronts until my situation stabilizes. Some believe life only throws hardship at those who can handle it; I guess she must think I’m some beast right now because she’s relentlessly sending challenges my way. Luckily, she has sent positive circumstances; therefore, I’m embracing the gifts, and I’m continuing to the best of my abilities.
