The days are growing longer but the night of my heart remains

The stages of grief can’t be avoided. Yesterday’s thoughts offered temporary relief, but the depression stage is back. Today was hard. It seems nothing can alleviate the sorrow. What’s interesting about loneliness is that being surrounded by people doesn’t make you feel less isolated — It’s the quality and the depth of your connections that establish your sense of togetherness. Right now, only one relationship seems to be able to make me feel complete, though it is no longer.

From waking up to going to bed, the emptiness followed me. It seems like everything I may invest myself into is just a distraction no matter how exciting or interesting it may be. I will definitely address this issue with my counsellor tomorrow in our weekly session. Meanwhile, I’m biting the bullet and hanging in there for another long lonely night. I don’t have much more to say. I may be audio reading at faster speeds and consuming more life-changing and helpful information, still, my heart aches. One day I will get better but for now, this is where I’m at.