The kindness of a stranger that gave me perspective.
After another frustrating to tears study afternoon, I’ve decided to go out to eat and change my mind for a bit. Little did I expect to meet an observant and kind waitress that made all the difference in my day.
The difficulties I’ve been facing would be much more manageable if it wasn’t for the constant negative inner talk I also fight. Science courses are hard, thought I wonder how it would be like with a stable emotional base. I’ve been reflecting on the various childhood experiences that led me to become so uncertain of my abilities.
Just when I’ve been trying to find answers to my psychological challenges, life put just the right person on my path. Within seconds of interacting with me, my waitress immediately pickup on my sadness. She asked a few questions to see what was going on, then she kindly opened up about her life. She came from a disfunctional family, and never had the life stability to even finish her highschool. To even try to study math is something she considers completely beyond her reach. Still, to me it didn’t matter; I admire her genuine kind nature.
Her support reminded me that human connection is what matters most in the end. Her talent to sooth a soul is an essential skill in this world. No matter how important sciences are to give us a future in this crippling world, at the end of the day, we are social animals. Watching over one another at an emotional level is the foundation of our salvation.
School is hard and discouraging, but I have that luxury. I will make sure to make the most of my privilege. Not everyone has access to education, especially higher education. I may be terrible at it but I will stay mindful of my luck. I want to be taking pleasure in this experience more from now on.
