There’s getting out of your comfort zone and being way out there with no comfort in sight.

Yikes! This is not good, not good at all. It so happens that I’m many classes behind to be able to complete this certificate. Horror! Marie Forleo, the author of “Everything is figureoutable”, would be proud of me right now. After one class and with one preparatory document I can assess that I’m way over my head. I will not quite, I don’t want to lose my student grants. Also, I’m a professional student so that’s my job to be in school no matter what. Though, I need to be ready to redo some classes and assign more semesters before entering the microbiology program. I, of course, explained the situation to my tutor and she told me she was in the exact same situation as me when she did this program and she made it. She knows how to tackle this and she will teach me. I told her I would do my best and I trust her judgement.

All hands-on board resourcefulness, today was a good day where I tackled many things from my to-do list and more, but tomorrow will follow an even faster pace. I will be registering for student help online before class and I will make sure I get all the help I can get. I successfully woke up at 6 am even my first activity was not before 11 am. I took this opportunity to walk to school which gave me the chance to discover a gorgeous river path and see my new city from a brand new perspective. Though tomorrow, I have a morning class so I will hop on the bus to give myself as much time as possible to take care of my emergency plan.

I’ve been exploring my new campus thoroughly the past week which allowed me to feel more at ease when under the stress of attending class. I found the quiet spots I can rest and the corridors to avoid going outside. I enjoy exploring new territory, even if it’s just my school. The surrounding nature is definitely calming and invigorating. Committing to wake up at 6 am every day of school is more inspiring in beautiful settings. I may not think like that in a few weeks, but I have to silverline my circumstances a bit. With an early morning and an early bedtime routine, I should minimize distractions and maximize my study energy. That’s one simple yet hard-to-maintain step I can take upfront.

On a side note, my mind has been spending way too much time thinking of P. Even with the fear of the mountain of studies I have to climb, an important amount of my thoughts is spent on wonders of how he feels and where he’s at. Letting go is hard. No matter how much I escape in past memories, I still need to face my present. Keeping busy does help tame the loneliness at least.

Gratitude Journal:

I’m grateful for tonight’s rainbow-coloured sunset.

Essentials of today’s to-do:

• Go to my student accommodation appointment for my learning disabilities — DONE
• Attend my first class — DONE
• Buy the necessary books for that class — NOT NEEDED, ONLINE DOCS ONLY
• Prepare my lunch for the next day — DONE
• Do my homework — I RED BUT UNDERSTOOD NOTHING, TO BE REVISED WITH MY TUTOR.

Essentials of tomorrow’s to-do:

• Register to all the student help centers for my program.
• Buy the necessary books for that class
• Prepare my lunch for the next day
• Do my homework

Goals

Daily (for tomorrow)

Hang in there.

Weekly

Be on time and act on each teacher’s demands.

Monthly

Commit to doing my homework in advance and use the university study period to my benefit.

Yearly

Complete my sciences preparation certificate as best as I can.

Life

Become a pussy juice doctor.

Mantra:

How does this help me become a pussy juice doctor?

Everything is figureoutable, says my tutor.