Under the shade of procrastination

Judith's Squirrels
2 min readApr 11, 2022

I chose to have a day at home after a good night of sleep, but one that needed to be extended in the morning. I’ve learned that I can only learn with a rested mind. As hard and worrisome it can get, I prefer to give my brain what it needs than push through my ideal schedule. This new approach has me walk on the thin line between procrastination, and rest. This uncertainty inevitably causes stress.

It’s a damn if you do damn if you don’t scenario at the moment. When I rest, I know my learning abilities will increase, but I get nervous that I may not have enough time to assimilateall the material I need to learn before the finals. When I study a whole day, I’m statisied, and happy with myself, but my retention levels are diminished. I still put in a good 3 focused hours of study today, but I wish I could do more, without loosing quality of performance.

I started the day with a good chat with one of my study buddy. I’m blessed by her friendship. She’s such a good person, it feels wonderful to exchange with he. We’re planning study time together tomorrow afternoon, which will help me get out of my worry bubble. Having grown up in a different country, she’s very community oriented, and I feel comfortable spending a lot of time together. It’ll be a good change of rhythm.

The final classes are coming up. Again, IIm nervous though I’ve consistently worked through out the semester. For as long as I keep it up, I will be okay. Practice makes perfect, even just a few exercises a day makes all the difference.

Gratitude Journal :

I’m grateful for the lessons of the past.

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Judith's Squirrels

Completed diary of a student entering university at forty. Just writing for me. Kaizenka, ex-nomade, foodie, and health nerd.