Moods
Back to business, getting shit done. I’m enjoying our evolving routine. Unceremoniously, we join forces to cook dinner, fold laundry, and tidy our place — our place. I love him so much, and I love our life together. Being able to be a hundred percent ourselves, farts, and all is the greatest gift.
Wholehearted acceptance is what we share. It makes every day together a joy. To be fair, St is an expert in understanding, and compassion. I’m consistently amazed at his ability to manage my cranky nature. I’m quite disagreeable, domineering, hyper critical, and a smart ass. Yet, like a saint, he listens, speaks from the heart, and has me in the palm of his hand. We don’t argue, we don’t get angry, and if something upsets us, we work the misunderstanding in love.
Today, we had no misunderstanding, no hiccups, just my usual cranky pants self when hungry. This months energy ups, and down have been brutal. It’s been hard to keep a pleasant attitude when my brain is overwhelmed with hunger, and clother thoughts. At least I know what is going on, and I express it first hand. St is aware, and so are the people around me. Masterfully, St stood by my side even if he was tired from work. Without extra effort just his calm soothing energy.
What we’ve noticed is that he takes a lot from his mom. In his parents dynamic, his mother is the sweet, and positive. While his dad has a short temper, but runs everything with the out most efficiency. Without any discomfort we acknowledge that we follow that pattern. I’m missy cranky pants, and his the sweet darling. St’s not at all bothered by my temper he spent his childhood watching his dad getting worked up for not much while his mom knew that it was momentary, and soon passed.
Loud obnoxious temper tantrum in an adult is no more serious than a child’s. St’s mother knows it, and so does St. I’m a very lucky overgrown child though I’m still working on managing my emotions everyday. Some days it’s harder to control my moods, but in the end, I have the most incredible, and supportive partner. His kindness is taming me, and my bad behaviors are receding. Everyday, we grow a little closer, a little more understanding of one another, and much more in love.
