Where did the week go?
Firday already?! Most people celebrate this opening to the weekend, but I’m baffled by the speed to which my schedule unfolded. It seems that my days are a consecutive series of to-dos that even introject in my dreams. It’s almost like after each time I close my eyes to sleep, I wake up to an even more hectic day; a non-stop wheel that keeps increasing in speed.
I use to live at the pace of my heart, following the next call to adventure under my own terms. It was a fun existence, but it also wasn’t quenching my thrust for knowledge. Now, I’m gasping for air under a sea of information. Once more, I don’t comprehend how full-time students do it.
My audioread for the week is, “The stress-proof brain,” by Melanie Greenbreg. It has been very insightful so far. I like that her advice are firmly grounded into recent neurlogy research. So far, at each questionnaire that evaluate stress levels, I score super high on all counts. I really don’t know how to manage stress as a member of “the normal world.” I lived an alternative lifestyle for so long that I literally had no idea of what the rest of the population was dealing with. To be faire, universities are nests of high achievers, still, I can rap my mind around the juggling most people have to do to meet all the demands of their circumstances.
Yeah, I’m stressed, and I clearly don’t know how to deal with it. My university offers study planning support, as well as stress management workshop. I’ll make sure to attend them in the semesters to come. It’s intense. All I can do for now is hold on till I reach the finish line. The finals dates, and classrooms have been set. The countdown has started, but I feel I’m still peddling in the middle of the midterms. It’s just crazy.
On a more positive note, I spoke to my best friend yesterday, and my close friend S today. My feeling that they may not be interested in a friendship with me was the fruit of my anxiety. All is well, and they are more supportive than ever. I still haven’t settled the matter with R, but I’m taking time to see how I feel about this before deciding what to do.
I will wake up early tomorrow so I can tackle my math quizz, and chunck away at some of my chemistry studies. Time to get some shut eyes, and start fresh in the morning.