Work the problem
I need to regain my senses after a lovely video chat with St. This weeks srudies have been particularly hard,and it seems that no matter what I try, I can’t figure out the solutions to my exercises. Thanks to St, he reminded me that when you can’t solve a problem, you have to work the problem. As we discovered that we both adored the movie “The Martian,” yet another thing we have in common, his suiting words is helping me overcome my stress.
I don’t want to cultivate a constant state of negative emotions while studying. I’ve been procrastinating in the form of performing tasks outside of studying in the past two weeks. It’s time I address the real issue: the miserable state I put myself in when I forcefully try to shove information in my brain. It’s counterproductive, I have witnessed it in my previous sessions, and I need to break the cycle.
This wise mantra, work the problem, will help me gain perspective on my studying. I have to learn how to efficiently take a step back so I can better explore other avenues for a solution. Most importantly, I have to trust that I WILL figure it out. I used to figure out so many day-to-day issues in my self-employed nomadic life, these well known, and well documented math problems have solutions. I just have to get smarter at discovering the resolution paths.
I’m in the bus, on my way home floating on a cloud of joy regardless of my school struggles. St is so open now. The man I new thirteen years ago, and the man I’m getting to know even better now is marvelous. The natural connection we had since we first met is blossoming into deeper depths of awareness. We both have learned so much from his man box relapse. The guy who’s been so supportive of all the women around him is shining. To know that I never was mistaking about who he is, but that it was he who had drifted away for a moment is reassuring thw both of us.
He’s so grateful I see him for who he is, and that I adore him exactly as he is. With trust, our hearts have open, our fears, insecurities, hopes, and dreams are exposed. Relationships take a lot of time, and energy, and I have to stay connected to my core throughout the process; same for him. We have planned our activities for my next visit to Montreal, and are making sure we will take things slow. We want this to work. We know all we have to gain from our efforts. In respecting our individuality, and by cultivating honesty we lay the foundation for a long-term nurturing romance.
